And there are days when I am up at 3 in the morning wondering what is the right thing to do and why is sleep evading me. Am I wicked and horrible and why this emotional nightmare? I am sorry please forgive me but I do not see myself living that life. I feel caged and claustrophobic. Please let me be, please let me be. I am there as a friend but don’t expect me to take on more. I cannot. I am not that strong or I don’t wanna be that strong. I can only take on my own burdens and not somebody else’s right now cos my basket is full and had been overflowing for the longest time. Now it seems I am getting a grip back into what I had wanted to be before fate wrecked havoc with my life and plans and dreams. Just leave me alone. Don’t cry and don’t make me do something out of guilt and pity. It is so unfair. I know I made a mistake but pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee don’t hold me responsible for something I was not a part of until 3 months back