And now you know...

I know you but I don’t know you. We’ve met but we haven’t met. Do I miss you? Hmmmm no but I can grow to miss you. I have so many questions in my mind. I wonder if I can make you laugh or I wonder if the time would fly when we are together. Together as in friends together and don’t worry I don’t hope for anything melodramatic and out of the blue. I have no idea how this is gonna be. I wish I could say that I am totally convinced about you and me but I am not cos I actually have no idea what you think of me but for the fact that I can fluster you and get you all worked up when you think I am angry with you. I like talking to you but I keep waiting for that one perfect conversation. I love your patience though cos I wasn’t born with much of it. That is something I have to learn from you if you are gonna be around in my life in the way I want you to. You know I never knew what I was fishing for when I first started pinging you hoping that one day you would ping me back. I must’ve pinged you some 4 times before you got around to take notice of me and pinging me on your own accord. By then I had kinda forgotten about you thinking this guy just isn’t interested. I still don’t know how interested you are. I remember bugging Par and Shivi about what I should talk to you about on chat and later how to sustain a conversation on phone. I remember writing points down before our nightly conversations and the conversations just never turned out to be the way I wanted them to. Everything has been so unexpected and I mean it. It just isn’t the way I thought it would be and maybe its gonna continue in the same fashion. I am clueless Sunshine completely clueless. The funniest being the fact that you call yourself Sunshine and that is what I use to call S. S was my sunshine but didn’t quite turn out to be my sunshine at the end of it.

I was so much in agony yesterday and I was dying wondering when are you gonna call, when are you gonna react and do I make any difference to you? I hate playing hard to get but with you I am compelled to play hard to get at times. I don’t wanna scare you with the intensity of my emotions. I try so hard to play cool, act like I don’t care half as much as I do. Sigh! But now you know. Yes you know.

Here I come

And Company Secretary it is. That is what we are gonna be in another 2 years or so. Yes! :-) We are gonna work in an audit firm and earn loads of mullah and we are finally gonna work as an Independent Consultant at our own pace and do our own thing.

Na this isn't gonna be easy but for once lets channelise our energies in the right direction however insipid the studying might get cos its the end that matters and at the end when one has a CS its gonna be such a high. Yup! :-) This seems doeable or undoeable? Would Dad have approved of it? I wonder if he would have. All this while I wanted to run away to Africa, Afghanistan and even Iraq and I guess I still would wanna but for my poor Mother heheh! Naaaa this is what I am gonna do. I made up my mind now.